warren&me now have artistic avatar, with link&logo on it.

i prepared the photo sketching warez the night before yesterday. yesterday in the beginning of the morning i launched to edit our avatars. with the aid of powerful softwares it very easy to got a artistic avatar design. i included our name and website on it, which quite satisfied me. but the process uploaded to my websites uneasy. dog in China surveillance heavily blocked me.last afternoon before the end of work time i almost spent 2 hours vainly trying to upload to qq alumni or my gmail. in the night after i forcifully moved baby who watched dvds for 2 hours away from pc and continuted to upload avatars to qq alumni. uploading finished quite smooth, but when i attempted to set it as my avatar in my profile there, dog again jammed my surfing and forced me gaveup. and they deleted the icq blog of my baby, warren zhu, the hope of China, this 4rd time of deletation.

this morning i uploaded avatars to my picasaweb. but when i backup my files to my gmail, they blocked it again and cut off t he Internet access in lan. they peeking on the lan, and stealen almost all my confidentials. they then broke into my accounts and messed up and blacken/distorted my message under my compromised confidentials. God sees and laughes for the shaddow in the dark of China.

benzrad's avatars:

warren's avatars:

baby in golden mid autumn

at home.

on the floor of waiting room.

on elastic bed in park.

ate beef pie.

baby's Beijing journey

now real summer

in armor

in sleep

ate ice cream

in triumph

bright afternoon on weekend

its a bright afternoon. baby recently got a cold and pumph and a doctor even warn irregular sound in his heart. yesterday i was melt in sorrow and mercy. but today he still so naughty and sound. he recently frequently demands cares with cries, which quite annoying,including his mother upset with his cries. i enjoyed the cyberspace presence very much. but after got wired the office pc, i sometimes on the contrast lose right mood to busy with the internet, instead, felt boring into doze and tears, resulting frequent doze in the morning.however, when i was full of energy, i enjoyed the web as usual and always be agile on posting and comment on web.

this afternoon was too bright to miss. ema busy with tutoring and earning all day while i dozed all the morning and sat in front of pc all afternoon. so ema suggested bringing baby outside before dusk. i didn't went outside with baby since i was sent to my hometown for ailment in the same month of last year. we visited the place around our home, the southern sports yard and south park. the scenery was the same except some folks refused to nod me for my illness. its almost half and a year after my brought my baby haunting the places in jungle of losing thoughts in the turbulent moment before i felt into asylum at my hometown in Hubei Prov. central China.

i love the game of being mad, and being recovered. i see God's call in it. i love my baby and my peaceful life so far. no matter what a thunder ahead, i see and under God's shine.

baby son on ride of his 3 years on earth

bright day, turning windy and pale sunshine after noon.

i still dozed a lot in office in the morning. last night ema told me she brought baby visited doctor, and was told likely baby's heart has some problem. my direct response was it can't be and i blamed her too fussy about baby's health. she retorted its none of my business. then i launched to operate on pc and my broking heart love for my baby, esp. in the view of cherished his countable time on earth let me sorry. i visited him who playing with his mother and felt we couples love him the same. then i doubting if we should not treating baby liking he was short of something comparing with other kids in the world. and i felt enough of ema's over-protect baby, just to show her tendering. i love baby strong and independent, cute and robust. i don't like to see his demanding other's companion, esp. his mother. but ema glad to drive him to ask for her cares. cares to his every cough with fussy padding, and every changes of body temperature with all kinds of medicines. too much fussy just to show her fragile cares. i would like to see baby silent and independent, enduring and sound.
this noon i returned home and found the grandma didn't cook as usual. i waited awhile then buzzed ema. she was with baby in another hospital, likely brought baby into medical check. i then left to office. on the way she buzzed but i can't listen clearly what she intends to do. after lunch in a nearby restaurant of the dorm i returned to office and buzzed her again and this time she had left baby in the kindergarten and returning to her working school. later when i writing this she buzzed me again and discuss the situation we faced.
i never believed my baby has any physical problem. he was just so perfect, so shiny under God's glow. if any problem calling him, that's from God's. God, let me take ur way and show me the peace of life of my family. i endured and took vow of loving the world u builds.

bright day, turning windy and pale sunshine after noon.

i still dozed a lot in office in the morning. last night ema told me she brought baby visited doctor, and was told likely baby's heart has some problem. my direct response was it can't be and i blamed her too fussy about baby's health. she retorted its none of my business. then i launched to operate on pc and my broking heart love for my baby, esp. in the view of cherished his countable time on earth let me sorry. i visited him who playing with his mother and felt we couples love him the same. then i doubting if we should not treating baby liking he was short of something comparing with other kids in the world. and i felt enough of ema's over-protect baby, just to show her tendering. i love baby strong and independent, cute and robust. i don't like to see his demanding other's companion, esp. his mother. but ema glad to drive him to ask for her cares. cares to his every cough with fussy padding, and every changes of body temperature with all kinds of medicines. too much fussy just to show her fragile cares. i would like to see baby silent and independent, enduring and sound.
this noon i returned home and found the grandma didn't cook as usual. i waited awhile then buzzed ema. she was with baby in another hospital, likely brought baby into medical check. i then left to office. on the way she buzzed but i can't listen clearly what she intends to do. after lunch in a nearby restaurant of the dorm i returned to office and buzzed her again and this time she had left baby in the kindergarten and returning to her working school. later when i writing this she buzzed me again and discuss the situation we faced.
i never believed my baby has any physical problem. he was just so perfect, so shiny under God's glow. if any problem calling him, that's from God's. God, let me take ur way and show me the peace of life of my family. i endured and took vow of loving the world u builds.

baby at home in warm spring night

baby at home

dad and son

proud dad and dauntless son

family united

baby visit his mother's hometown.

baby with his uncle.

baby with cousin and her mother

my family,including my grandma.

baby with cousin.

baby bathed by his parents rarely recently in weekend.

baby's dad suggest bathing baby for he found he very like to play with tap water then worried if he got few chance to play with water.he recently only being bathed by his grandma in daytime when we absent from home.so we had never seeing he being bathed.my baby glad to being bathed by his parents,however, he refused his dad bathing him but only let me,his mom, bath him.so his dad suggest shot some pictures and we agreed.that's Jan 12,2008.baby sometimes liked to bump a lot to let us notice him,and sometimes really annoying,esp. when u r busy.i always catered to him,and spent a lot of time to play with him,while his dad usually busy with pc.

baby bathed by his parents rarely recently in weekend.